Suffering...

I just found myself that suffering half of my life in academic matters.....why?? Now think about it, I'm quite tired though....really....

Please save me from this.....it doesn't feel good.....AT ALL.....
I wanna prove....that I'm capable.....that I'm a partner that can count on....
I need brain....just a smarter brain....
I have hardwork but that's just not enough....or should I say, not hardworking enough..

I've never been this tired before....3-4 academic matters just stroked on me at almost the same time....Xplode.....

Sigh....gotta get back to work....hope tomorrow will be better! And I hope each of my friends out there doesn't suffer what I'm suffering~

明天会更好！

Dissapointment

Somtimes I wonder....are You having fun on me or wat? If that's the case, I hope You've enjoyed it coz You did had a lot of fun on me I guess....izit that You'll feel better seeing other ppl cried, mentally tortured or should I say mindfucked ?? Come on, I'm sooooo tired edi....I dun wanna FAIL anymore!! seriously...

Especially when I'm wif her,who wanna dissapoint their love ones? NO!! I wonder wat happen in my past life or the life I'm having now, maybe I juz do too less charity?? WAT IS THIS?????? AHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!! SIAO LIAO !!!!!!

1) How am I going to tell my parents and family?
2) Dissapoint her again? Yes. Although she din say anything but at least I can't 过我自己那关...I'm sry, my heart is like stabbed deeply by a knife

1) Continue to live on and be strong
2) Commit suicide
3) Do nothing

I just dun have the courage to do number 1, really sry....2nd one, dun have the courage either, such a noob! Guess I left number 3 to choose, see step walk step~

Anyone up there, if You wanna take 10 years life from me in order to solve the situation now, go ahead! I would be so happy to! Thanks~

Statically proven, I'm noobshit, stupid, + anything bad basically, am I really 配得起她？I'm doing my best...to hold her tight, coz I dunno wat will happen to me if I lost her........juz can't afford that.......really....

压力

最近。。压力真的比较大。。

除了要把 assignment 做好之外，还有其它事情要做好~
她的生日要来了，真的很想帮她过个比较热闹的生日，，可以让她记得的~
可是我现在头脑真的不是很能 function, 想到的东西只是怎样做好我的 assignment~ 真的很不应该。。吗？

另外，就是要 plan 家人来到这边的 trip...很累~ 想把这三件事情做好，我真的没有了方向。。

希望明天会更好~ 加油~

kEEP FiGHTinG !!

Everyone is doing great, what about me?
Stand there and drop tears?
Nah, not gonna happen to me...at least not now

I'll be pushing myself to the max until I've finished AiC
8th March 2011, a date to be remembered (like WTF! = =)

Lots of enjoyment are waiting for me, these little pressures aren't gonna take me on
Everything I'm doing is for her, and for me
Past to be remembered, present to be precious, future to be together

So everyone, let's work hard together for AiC and a better future

:)

In a relationship :)

二月十七号，17th February 2011
我又恋爱了~ :)

但愿我们俩能珍惜彼此，分享对方的喜、怒、哀与乐~
要知道，两个人在一起，并不容易啊~
今后，就是两个人的事了，有个人和你分担，总是幸福的~
所以我会尽力，让妳成为最幸福的女人~
遵守对妳，对自己的承诺~ :)

愿天下有情人，终成眷属~
尚未恋爱的朋友们，祝你们赶快找到另一半哦 :)

成功？！

突然就有个问题出现在脑海中。。何谓成功？我有成功过吗？

我认真的想了一下。。还真的是没有～
如果成功与否，是看在自己眼里，当然和在别人眼里相较之下，显然不同～

可以这么说吗？成功与否，不是看你赚多少钱，穿什么名牌。。而是履不履行得到对自己，或对别人的承诺～

坦白说，我真的很在乎别人对我的肯定与否，如果得不到别人的肯定，我会还蛮在意的～
不是说我自己没有自信心，而是说，有时被别人肯定到，还真的是一股很强的推动力～（对我而言）
哪怕是一个不起眼的东西，可是有人肯定我，我会觉得一切都值得。。
或许可以酱说。。我的信心，有一部分是被别人肯定回来的～　甚至大部分也说不定

最近在电话里 set 了一个　note，写着：
‘不要认为自己不好，只是自己做得不够好而已。换个角度去想，或许会有更好的收获。为了心爱的人，也为了自己，加油！’

To what extent do you agree with the note above? Agree or disagree and why? (5 marks)

以上言论，完完全全代表本人立场，跟其他人一点都没关系，ｓｏ不要乱猜啦～　XD

Happy CNY !! Good night~

笑我笨

我虽然笨，但是我有决心和毅力，我也一定会努力！

我想信，下一次的我，会更好！！

加油！！

P/S: 好高兴听妳酱说。。嘻嘻！爱死你了~ :p

Stress....kah?

唉。。最近都不懂做么力不从心。。忽然间 feel 到有很多压力。。当然，都是自己给的~

很想在她面前做到最好，但又偏偏做不到。。真是没用~
然后这两个礼拜，又有两份 assignment 要交，而且蛮重要的。。

还有另外一个，我的体重下不到。。减到 93 后就停了很久，没下过了。。我也没有偷懒啊，也没有吃不应该吃的东西，做么你不要下叻？？ 你不下，我要怎么得到她叻？当然也不是说不下就得不到啦，机会比较大咯~
可是，我想现在都有 80% 了吧？hehe~

Anyway, 发完牢骚。。还是继续做我的 assignment 了~
只要她在我身边，就没有什么事做不到！
答应过她，也答应自己，要让她每天都开开心心~ :)

加油！！

陈威全 & 王蓝茵 - 中间

A really really nice song, somehow indirectly, might turn out to be our love song :)

一个人一整夜无法入眠

最后决定只拥抱再见

离开我的房间灯火全灭

关不上的门是心那一面

我仿佛听见你还在门前

曾清楚对你画的线

第一次让泪水变的不坚决

原谅我行装只整理到昨天

*总要离开才发现

有一个人在习惯和爱中间

因为每一天见面

才让那想念自然而不明显

到了离别才发现

有一个人在习惯和爱中间

以为说出了再见(但转身的想念)

连自己都无法骗repeat all once
左右两边我们犹豫不决
哪一天再见当初小小的爱恋
还在不在原点

总要离开才发现
有一个人在习惯和爱中间
因为每一天见面
才让那想念自然来去穿越
到了离别才发现
分不清你在喜欢和爱中间
以为说的是再见(下一刻的想念)
而明天我怎么演
下一刻的想念而明天我怎么演

Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XIdtwzRRG44

Enjoy and wish me luck! :)

追。被追。

一个烦追人（朋友），一个烦被人追。。

可是，往往都是男生烦追人的 woh....可不可以有一次，情况调转过来。。
让女生来追男生啊？让男女的角色调换一下。。让彼此尝试不同的滋味。。

因为，现在是从我的观点出发嘛。。所以不公平~
女生也很烦的，看她就懂。。有时候，会觉得她们比我们更烦。。
要去拒绝一个人，难~
要去拒绝一个，曾经拒绝过的人（means 那个男生被 somehow 拒绝了，还继续追），更难？

我不懂，seems like it~
真的有点累了 tim...aiks~
怎样。。
等哪一天。。我真的很累了。。就是 hai gam sin 咯~

也许。。她会更高兴呢？hmm...
各位，癞蛤蟆想吃天鹅肉。。是吃不到的。。lol (only apply on myself)

（有进展，又如何呢？）

晚安咯~

True?

Is is really true that people make mistakes? I mean it's fact though but I don't seen anyone doing it...right now?

Alright, I didn't seen it, doesn't mean it didn't happen right?
Sigh...here comes my 矛盾-ness again

Sry guys...just can't help it
Anyway, I did really a mistake tonight by not fully utilizing the chance...
When my friend told me, yup...it's a lil bit too late

Good night everyone~

2009, 2010, 2011

Suddenly pop up on my mind...

2009: 很高兴能认识你
2010: 很开心能了解你
2011: 很希望能得到你

Happy New Year and wish everyone will have a remarkable year !! :)

Is it that hard?

I'm a nice guy, at least she knows that~

Is it that hard to break into her heart? Well of course, never been easy before to break into anyone's heart...

What I THINK we lack of is a feeling, a moment that will let her fall in love with me...which I'm doing my best for that

What do I really need to do to break into her heart? I really need to know that, although I've been seeking the answer for quite some time...I scared I will really forfeit in the middle of this...tired sometimes, but I know I wouldn't, because every single time I see her smile, I'll just melt and I wish to make her smile every single day! I'm just too attracted to her smile then~

Yup, I can say there really is improvement, appreciate it right? Yup, I do!

Maybe I put my hope too high, just too believe in a simple sms she sent, just becoz of a 'muacks' ...

Hmm...'just can't pass my own self yet'? Hmm...means? I do hope is a positive one though. Is that you are not confident for the next relationship? Commitment issue?
I don't care what it is, I just want to show you that I really want to be with you! And I THINK we can get over the problems together? That's what I hope.

Who knows what will happen in the future? But I hope this doesn't take too long.

Hey psss....I LOVE YOU!

Improve...

Hmm...seems like everyone is improving, no matter by little or a lot...

How about me?

Sad~

勇气。失败。

最遥远的距离，莫过于她在你面前，却不敢/不能跟她说话。。只因为，怕了失败的感觉~

1.18am (GMT +0), 23/11/2010

闷闷不乐的一天

如果是有感觉的，就算天涯海角，都不会觉得他/她远
如果没有，就算只是住楼上楼下，也会觉得很远

我落泪。情绪零碎，正适合我刚才的心情。。in fact, 现在还是有点。。

不能否认，我真的心痛。。是因为，好像努力了很久的东西，都没有用
然后，还告诉你说，做么那个男生对我没 feel 叻酱。。walau~ 痛咯~

不用紧，因为喜欢她，就告诉她勇敢去追求自己的幸福咯 酱~
矛盾？我也分不清了。。只知道心很痛

真的是‘我来到寂寞边界，爱已失窃，心在淌着血’
没有更好的比喻。。

祝天下有情人，终成眷属~

异性

怎么我跟其他人好像反向了呢？？XD
全部人都想要找了，可是我反而渐渐没有那个想法（表示现在还有一点点）

当我告诉我一个朋友这个想法时，他就跟我讲。。现在不找，以后很难找哦~ hmm...有点道理~
可是，有时会觉得有点累。。可能就是在当你心仪的对象不是很吊你的时候。。哈哈~

Anyway, 还是认为先把自己的事业打好，因为我比较笨，需要比较长的时间，不像我的朋友那样厉害，可能在四、五年就可以打好经济基础，然后才可谈成家立业~

能的话，同步进行是最好咯~ 可是，酱好的事，轮都不会轮到我啦~
是不是酱的叻？找你喜欢的人很容易，找喜欢你的人很难。。一见钟情，还真的蛮甘苦，怎么都遇不到

唉。。由不得我烦，还是继续升学为上，想酱多也没什么用，好好读完我的第三年，gambateh 严世伟，你可以的！！！

空虚，寂寞？

最近这几晚，想必我是真的空虚，寂寞许久了。。。

在深夜，自己唱着歌，眼泪会掉下来的哦~

还真没试过。。

这么久了，说没想她是骗自己，只是没那么想她而已~

我是笨蛋，还是专情啊？

像笨蛋多一点吧。。。

晚安~

Lonely

我挂念的，没挂念我~

我想的，没想我~

真希望可以回到 07，08年。。重渡那甜蜜的岁月~

星期四，期待~

痛！！！

Walauehhhhhh.....seriously...我的心很痛~ 真的好像被扯掉一块酱！

Sigh...早点约不就好咯！其实也很难讲。。都酱了，讲什么。。

全部人都睡了，只好吐在 blog 里面！
痛痛一下，还参有一点想哭的感觉~ woo...serious~

Plan 好的东西，就酱没有掉。。只差没开口问而已~ sigh
以后不要再酱犹豫不决了~ 敢敢去！！干！！

晚安~

T.T